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Happy Ending

We have folks fighting over freedom, sustenance, dominion, harmony, equity and what-nots, and then there are people who are busy fighting over fondness, and even more over self. Now what could be more importunate than having someone clamor about the lack of empathy shown to him? Or rather someone going all about the tiffs spared for him? Of course there may be other issues to mind, but when your psyche gets psyched, nothing and nobody matters.
Yes, we do have one of those days. All of us. When we begin burning in self-esteem, begin uttering things-kept-down, begin to keep scores, begin to hatch a feud, begin a lone trip. We all do that. Someday, sometime. Or maybe every time? And then we have those much awaited face-offs.
The point of all this you ask? A little over the top ‘small-talk’, punches and pillows flying everywhere, screams (did I mention abuses?) bursting out of those windows, silence between those sighs and heavy-breaths, and of course the ______ endings.
There could be well so many reasons for the entire fix. And there would be no point in gunning for those. But the logic says, you either strive to stick or to skin. And there is always, always a choice. We do need to go for the latter when it’s about time to put an end to those torturous insecurities. And we do need to go for the former when you know deep down that the schism is not worth it. But the most important of all is to make sure that we are headed for a happy ending. Regrets are sure going to be a part of anything and everything. Reasoning with those qualms or overlooking them is a big headache, and ours only. Striving would go on, so would the logic to strive. So go ahead, that space there is yours to fill. Before anything, make sure you have a happy ending to fill in there and the rest could be taken care of.

Ambition

And, we have this big question lying before us all the time, "So what's your plan? Your goal in life?" You might retire someday, but the question never retires. And the funny part is that we might answer it a thousand times, but we never really catch up with the right thing to say. You answered someone today. One year from now, and you'll see that your answer changed. And it will keep changing till your last breath. Because in this one life, we keep changing and so do our ambitions. Every moment that we live, we unknowingly take an aim. We might not know it, but we keep chasing it. Ambitions are made and destroyed every second. But each time the question is put up, we fail to come up with a conclusion. So then why bother? Like do we really need to scratch our head for getting the most impressive, just out-of-the-world answer to this? Why can't we stop torturing people with this 'small chat' and let them be! Like does it really help? No. Instead it suffocates you inside. Once said, it becomes a liability and time and again your ambition keeps haunting you. We are told "Know your check posts, your ambitions and you'll save your time". Ah dude! Half of the time we waste upon thinking and finding the answer to 'what is our damn ambition'. Of course, we do everything on a purpose. But knowing the purpose isn't that important; living the moment is. Yeah, it's good to follow your aspirations, but wouldn't it be better to follow your heart? If your heart says yes, then do it. Don't stop thinking for a WHY. And most importantly, don't let anybody else stop you. Do what you feel is best to do that moment. But don’t come down on what you want just because you think you have your ambition in your way. Plus don’t plan your course in a double-quick. In fact don’t plan at all I’d say. Come to think of it. You like Math. But do you just want to be a Math-lover? You like to play with pictures. But do you just want to be a photographer? You like to write. But do you just want to be trapped between those deadlines? You like to work for social and political causes. But do you just want to be a socialist? Or a politician? You like being a CS/IT guy. But do you just want to have a desk job? You like to earn. But do you just want money and that 10-to-8 hour thing? You're retired. But do you just want to stay put? Guess what? We never want just one thing. Our desiderata never come to an end and never really stay the same. All we ever want is a life worth living. That is our ‘ambition’ for real. And for that you don't need to have a pre-checked list of targets or you don't need to measure your margins; you only need to know if you're happy. To take what comes and then pour your soul into it would be a better thing to do rather than just going on to fulfill your said ambition with less intention and more habit. Because at the end, ambitions won't matter, but the content on your worn-out face and the smile between your wrinkles will.

My phone beeped~ "Pick up your pen". It was raining hard. The window called out for me. I'd have fallen for that easily, and I did. It was only 5 minutes but it's amazing what an erratic reflection can mean.

Rain

When it rains, our ground seems to be slithering a bit. But actually, the duds and chattels lying on the ground skim with the flow. Every little while, the rain comes and takes away every tiny bit of ground with it. But the ground never complains. Doesn’t it ever get attached with all the baggage lying there? Why would it? The ground never gets to choose. It is the rest who plunk down simply anything on their walk without a second look. And the ground never complains. So when the rain washes it all away, the ground just gets to watch. Neither the ground gets tired nor the rain. The beauty lies in the fact that neither of them interferes in another’s gig. Can’t we go about the same way? Do your job. Don’t care about the world. Our devoirs, our concerns are all a part of the network. If the propinquity brings sorrow, it brings happiness too. To accept without hashing over it, is not equal to fail. Sometimes, being a mute beholder is the best thing to do. Need help? Watch the ground. And then, watch the rain.